Darkness can be a metaphor for many things in life, including fear, uncertainty, and the unknown. Recognizing the darkness means acknowledging those things that we often try to hide or avoid, and confronting them head-on. It is about understanding that without darkness, there can be no light, and that facing our fears is necessary for growth and development. But the darkness can also represent the evil that lurks in the shadows, seeking out the perfect opportunity to turn our everyday life into the horror fiction that so many get paid so well to write about.
Darkness can infect and spread from person to person, escaping notice until it is too late. The pandemic that is hidden and kept away from the light until its deadly effects is front page news, but the darkness is a cleaver fiend, slithering away from disaster before anyone notices that it was responsible for the death and destruction that is broadcasting on every news channel and front and center on every headline.
I am not a trained journalist. I have many hours of college education, and if strung together, I would have multiple degrees but because I kept changing my major, I am left with debt without reward. I am a lover of many things, and what can I say... I am a woman who likes to change her mind. But there is something that I am passionate about. I have always loved to write and I have always been addicted to news and current events.
The first time that I caught a live stream for Steve, at the very beginning of the riots, I knew that he was passionate about the same things that I was and I could see what he wanted to accomplish and I was all in. We both care about our fellow Americans and humans on this spinning rock we call Earth.
Humanity is a precious but precarious thing to possess. You either cherish life or you have a wanton disregard for life and some are just doing their best to live their lives without falling into the darkness themselves.
Despite my formal journalism training, I possess a strong moral code and ethics that I live by. So does Steve, so it was not a hard decision to pursue our passion and seize the moment to bring the truth to as many people as we possibly can.
At this point, I am frustrated. I am frustrated that the countless tragedies that we have witnessed in the past three years only serve to push people farther apart. I am frustrated that we are telling people the truth daily and they choose to ignore us simply because something was said that contradicted their own beliefs. They were insulted that someone they thought they saw themselves in, had the audacity to have an independent thought or belief that is separate from the masses.
I am frustrated because unlike many who do this for a living, I do not shy away from the hard stuff. I believe that if I am to write about something, I need not take what others have to say without immersing myself in the details so that I can say this is what I saw and this is what I know.
I watch the videos that leave me with nightmares. I read the case files that confirm that evil walks among men and that the darkness is claiming innocent lives. I read the police reports that do not censor the gore and the graphic details of a crime. I listen to the confessions of those responsible for bringing mothers to their knees as their child is being lowered into the ground.
Why do I do this? Two reasons. One is so that I can ensure that I am providing you with the truth... whatever that may be. The second, and the one most dear to my heart, so that I can shine a light on those who may not have had it otherwise. The forgotten. The neglected and those that society has deemed to be a statistic that they wish to forget. Light can effectively banish the darkness, right?
I have shied away from several stories lately, for several reasons. One of which is self-preservation. It is frustrating when you deal with all the darkness and you try to present the information in a way that people will read, share, and in doing so, help us bring truth to as many people as possible. But that's not happening.
Maybe I am not the best writer, and I know that I am the queen of typos, but the facts are there. Every single sordid detail.
What does the child who was abused, neglected, sexually assaulted, and exploited for the pleasure of their caregivers ever do to deserve it? What did the woman who was raped and left for dead do to deserve that? What about the man sitting on a curb, minding his own business only to be shot in the head, do to deserve that? What about the child riding in a car seat eagerly anticipating the happy meal that their father just ordered, and getting shot and killed as they waited for that coveted toy inside their meal?
After the shooting at the outlet mall in Allen, Texas, I stumbled upon a video that was taken by a person at the mall minutes after the bullets stopped flying. What their camera captured left me with nightmares. Behind a bush in front of the H&M store was a pile of humans that were clearly deceased, including a young child whose life was splattered along the sidewalk.
What the hell did that child do to deserve that?
More importantly, what the hell does their tragedy have to do with your political ideals? News flash... it doesn't. The darkness is here and it is spreading unchecked. So please, leave the politics out of this, and let's figure out a way to heal the broken minds and souls and banish the darkness.
We as a society have allowed the darkness in and instead of trying to shine the light and banish it, we are fighting over keeping our lives the status quo. We are fighting just to fight. We are fighting to try and not take any blame for leaving the door open for evil to enter. We are fighting with all that we have and without any regard for the cost that accompanies such fierce deflection.
American novelist Flannery O'Connor once said that “The truth does not change according to our ability to stomach it emotionally. A higher paradox confounds the emotion as well as reason and there are long periods in the lives of all of us, when the truth as revealed by faith is hideous, emotionally disturbing, and downright repulsive. Witness the dark night of the soul in individual saints . . .”
Just because we may not be able to stomach looking at the dark and all that lies within, does not mean that it does not exist, only that we are willfully looking away. We are allowing it to grow and fester while we look at more pleasant images and focus on our anger and indignation at others. We hide the infection under emotions that we try to argue make us morally correct in all things.
What can you do today and the day after and the day after that to bring light into the world? Who can you help?
Start with looking inside your self. Is there darkness residing in your soul that can infect others?
“The Dark Night of the Soul is not merely “having a bad day” or even week. The Dark Night is a long, pervasive, and very dark experience. If you’re experiencing the Dark Night of the Soul, you will constantly carry around within you a sense of being lost. Your heart will constantly, in some shape or form, be in mourning, and this is because you long deep down to feel the presence of your Soul again,”
said Aletheia Luna.
It is important to acknowledge that acknowledging the negative aspects of our lives is crucial for our personal growth. It enables us to gain a better understanding of ourselves and the world around us.
Our struggles and challenges are an essential part of our journey, and we should embrace them with open arms. By recognizing and accepting the darkness within us, we become more resilient, compassionate, and empathetic toward others. We learn to appreciate the beauty of life's struggles and challenges and grow into more fulfilling individuals.
We are often told that words are powerful, yet we rarely think about the impact that false words can have on our souls. False words are lies that we tell ourselves and others, and they can infect our minds like a poison. They can come from a variety of sources, including external influences like media and advertising, or from our own inner voice. These words can leave us feeling unworthy, inadequate, and insecure.
Surrounding yourself with positive influences is essential to leading a fulfilling life. This could mean surrounding yourself with supportive friends and family, listening to uplifting music, or reading positive affirmations daily. Living authentically means being true to yourself and your values, even if it means going against the norm. But more importantly, do not harm others with your words when they are doing the same with their own lives, and be that positive influence on others. Start small and aim high.
There is no magic wand to fix society. No laws can be legislated to fix the soul of the nation. Not one individual possesses the answers to make our world more just. We just have to make an effort to be better people, even when it is difficult. Even when everyone around us is doing the opposite.
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